For any new (revert) Muslim, the entire ordeal just seems too much. It feels like everything needs to change, from your work to lifestyle to food and what not. And on top of that with the constant policing of those around you, telling you to do it all at once is just too much. So much so that you might even start doubting everything. Is it all even worth it?
That is where Allah comes to play. His messenger, Prophet Muhammad comes to play, may peace be upon him.When Allah revealed the Quran, He did not reveal it all at once. He revealed it over 23 years. Because in His infinite wisdom Allah knows human beings take time to adjust to new changes.
Unquestionably, it is We who have sent down to you, the Quran in installments.(Quran 75:23)
Once a man came to the Prophet (peace be upon him) and expressed his interest in embracing Islam. However, he was not ready to pray five times a day; he could do only two. The Prophet (peace be upon him) agreed to that. The man accepted Islam and left. Afterwards the companions of the Prophet (peace be upon him) asked him why did he allow the man less than required number of times to pray? Because a Muslim must pray five times a day. Prophet (peace be upon him) answered ‘Once he tastes the sweetness of salah (prayer), he will start praying all five just like that’ .
People around you might try to make you a scholar of the Quran overnight, or fit you into a longest hijab or beards, for which you might not be ready yet. You need to know that Allah does not expect you to turn your life around overnight. If it takes you one week to memorize one verse, or even less, that is okay with Allah. Allah is not interested in your quantity, He is only interested in your quality.
Allah has named Himself Al Shakur. He appreciates every bit of your struggle. So don’t beat yourself up of you can’t focus, or do any better than what you are doing.You are doing the best that you know how to, with what you have. You would do more, if you could.And no one knows that better than Him.
Worshipping Allah is not only confined within rituals like prayers and fasting. Every good deed that you do, from smiling at someone to removing a trash from the street, saying a good word, maintaining truth and honesty,helping a person in need, feeding the poor,all are worship. Basically being a good person is worship. Asking Allah for help (dua) is the greatest act of worship. Even though others are fluent in their prayers and yours seem a far cry, its okay. Your sigh from exhaustion is a worship of Allah. When you wish to fast but your body gives away, that mere wish is also a worship of Allah. That is the beauty of Islam. Everything is worship when done being mindful of Allah and His Pleasure.
Say, “Indeed, my prayer, my rites of sacrifice, my living and my dying are for Allah , Lord of the worlds”. (Quran- 6:62)