If you could pick ONE deed you will do regularly this Ramadan (instead of overwhelming yourself with a plate full and then giving up midway), what would that be?
Mine is DUA. Because the prophet (peace be upon him) said dua is the essence of worship. So no matter what you do, if the underlying intention is not tied to acceptance of dua, its basically losing the prime factor. So if faced with a choice, pick dua. After all your duas especially the last ten nights will determine the chain of events in the next one year. So if possible, make a list so you dont forget.
Dont forget, the most honorable thing to Allah is dua. He loves that you ask and gets upset if you dont. So dua away like nobody’s business.
And believe that He will give like nobody’s business. Because it really isnt. He promises to give whoever He wills without limits.
When you walk into a brightly lit room from darkness you squint your eyes.
When you wake up after a refreshing nap you still feel little groggy the first couple seconds.
In the same manner, when joy peeks in after what seemed like an eternity of grief, when relief comes in after an eternity of oppression- it is natural to be scared initially. Its okay if your initial reaction is that fear and not gratitude. It really is- because the years of tears and pain made your entire existance learn to anticipate only worse. It will be sometime before it reverses itself. So its okay, because birds raised in cages are afraid to fly.
You miss it. You miss those times. The people, the lanes, the streets- it is as life you lived an eternity among them. It is as if it was a whole different life, a whole different you.
Reminisce it. Soak yourself in the scent of those nostalgic fragrances as you breathe into your pillow, stiffling another sob under those staggering breathes. Allow your heart to swell and burst as it walks down the memory lane of those bittersweet cinnamon memories of the winter mornings.
And what better time to do it than the depths of the night? When the only One who lived through those experiences with you come down in the last third of the night- only for you. To reminisce your journey with you, laugh at your joy, weep for your sorrows, grieve the loss and hope for the future. He wants to walk those ailes with you, know about the taste of those salty cashwes you had, the sweetness of the fruits you got drunk in, the spices of the various colors that gave you ulcers.
He watches you twisting and turning in agony as you silently soak your pillow with another sleepless night. Thats why He comes down everynight and waits for you behind the clouds. To talk to you, to hear from you.
Perhaps thats why the delay. You are being asked to look deeper in yourself to truly unleash what it is that is holding you back. Whatever it is you are askiny for, if you were to receive it right now, are you fully equipped to embrace it?
I am not referring to the physical or materialistic preparation. If you are looking for a job, I am not asking if you have the proper skills, if you are looking to get married, I am not asking if you know the secrets to be a perfect spouse, if you are looking to be a parent, I am not asking if you know how to be the best one. You know all of that and what to do. You can find that knowledge anywhere or from anyone.
What I am asking is are you ready and prepared within yourself? Have you cleared away all the shackles that scarred you? Are you completely aware of the myriads of ways your subconcious might have been harboring inhibitions, and if you do, what are you doing to erase them completely?
Receiving the much awaited break, the much awaited joy requires a different form of strength. One that you need to teach yourself. A strength of heart, a strength of faith, a strength of gratitude.
As they say, there is always more to it than meets the eye.
You screamed out because your lifeline was severed. What sustained you ever since your existance originated was literally cut off. But what you didn’t realise was that when He took away that unmbilical cord, He replaced it with milk. And a life you never ever knew existed.
If they can’t see what you see, if they fail to understand your beliefs towards your goals, if they cant see you for who you truly are, its okay.
He will show YOU, and YOU will recognise them. He never said they will.
Perhaps they havent seen any better ergo don’t know any better. Perhaps Allah has chosen you with this grandeur of “living your own tale and leaving your own legacy” so through you others get to know it all a little better. Know Him a little better. Know His Serendipities a little better.
Someone very dear to me once said, ” When we are no longer able to change the world around us, we are forced to change what is in ourselves.” Those words never left me. And now I know why.
You were created for greatness. Don’t sell yourself short. Perhaps you are the missing piece which will change forever the way the universe presumed Serendpities. Perhaps it is through you that not only the world but the even stars and galaxies will witness that Serendipities Are A Divine Orchestra Of Perfectly Crafted Symphonies. Perhaps it is through you that He will change forever the way we love, we dream and we believe. Perhaps it is through you the world will once again live…laugh…
And most importantly, Love ❤…
Perhaps it is through you that the world will witness once again The Perfection Of Allah. Perhaps through you the creations in their entirety will humble themselves before Him at the sheer awe at which He has crafted the nuances. Yes, all of the creations- not only the cosmos but the angels and the heavens, in adulation of Him. Through you.
People with the least knowledge often turn out to be the wisest. Plenty of people have lives full of examples and remarkable stories, but devoid of any wisdom. The greatest treasure you can steal from any circumstance is wisdom. You will meet a lot of people who are very knowledgeable but will still feel like you are not getting the exact help from them that will “click” with you. That “click” is basically wisdom; you are looking for wisdom my friend. And off the record, wisdom does not really have much to do with age.
“…whoever had been given wisdom has certainly been given much good. And none will remember except those of understanding”(Quran 2:269).